Landmark Forum - Day#1

About 10 years ago EVERYONE in my family became obsessed with this life coaching seminar called Landmark Forum.  My parents, step-parents, grandparents, baby brother etc. all did the program.  Everyone, except my brother, was crazy in love with it.  As a 12 year old I was forced into attending a lot of Forum “graduations” that were both dull and non-sensical to me.  I flat out REFUSED to do the program…until 3 months ago when my mom expertly used her Jewish guilt on me.  In a moment of weakness I signed up for it.

Today was day 1 of a 4 day course.  Each day lasts 12-13 hours, starting at 9am.  I decided to go into it with a skeptical, but open mind.  Day 1 is now over and I am convinced now more than ever that this is NOT the program for me.  Even angsty 12 year old me had some sense of this.  Today I sat in an extremely uncomfortable chair in an overly air conditioned room (which I am convinced has brought on a cold) for 13 hours and watched 10 grown adults stand on a make shift stage and weep openly about their problems to a room filled with 125 strangers.  I was asked to perform visualization exercises, given assignments about identifying my authentic/inauthentic personality traits, and a homework assignment about identifying something called a racket and writing a letter to a person I have wronged.

I have never rolled my eyes, sustained laughter, or heard so many irrelevant/corny sports analogies so much in one day.  I was an emotional roller coaster verging on frustration, fury, annoyance and just a hint of delirium.  Basically, I’m the bitch in the room and I think the forum leader knows this based on how many times she caught me glaring at her today.  I’m also the resigned cynic/conspiracy theorist in the room.  The whole time I could not help but wonder how many of the people sitting around me were paid actors pretending to have a moving experience or if the extreme air conditioning is actually a gaseous chemical meant to make us happy and compliant.  Basically, I’m crazy.

I have nothing in common with most of the people in this program.  I have another 3 days of this to look forward to and I don’t think I will be able to make it.  However, it’s possible that I will drink the Kool Aid and become obsessed with it like the rest of my family.  Maybe.

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  1. baysidedreamer reblogged this from keirr and added:
    GREAT POST, THOUGHT IT WAS ONLY ME. Didn’t pop, Didn’t do shit.. It’s like the most basic shit put together...
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